A preparation

Salam alaik and greeting to all.

Yup! I've taken my peyyemmar result back few days ago. And as i promised, Alhamdulillah, 8As in a row. I just couldn't stop thanking Allah for this bliss. Not forgetting to those who keep praying for this little achievement i had. Jazakallahu khairan katsira. May Allah bless everyone. :)

So, i've been through upsr, pmr and next is.....'say hello spm?'

Eheh! it's okay (or not) well hey, i still got two years time to stuuddyy what? (You better struggle in next year najjah.) yeah i'd better do so since everyone keep annoyed me saying spm is the hardest thing that they ever had duh. -and i keep on saying to my sister to not getting straight As so that i won't have to compete with her ekekke.

But, honestly, i am not going to talk about my preparation for spm lah, haiya!

I have to face this  REAL TEST I MEAN A REALLY BIG ONE!

And what is that?

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It is a test that I have to answer  them when i am in the other world, alam barzakh and the judgement day. Trust me, it is going to be the hardest things ever! The test when we in alam barzakh will be asked by munkar and nakir (the angles) they gonna be beyond than fierce (I'm getting a goose bump here).

"Ma rabbuka? (who is your god?)"

"Ma nabiyyuka? (Who is your prophet?)"

Easy as kacang goreng....

Eleh. I thought the ques is harder meh...here also can answer what...

Ya ya ya, you might say so. But do you REALLY sure that you gonna deal with it, i mean do you really can aswer those kacang goreng questions in fact when you're alive you don't even complete your five daily salah, never reciting the noble al-quran and remembering allah by zikir-ing? Sounds nut in your opinion. And yet, you are a muslim. Nauzubillah min zalik!

So, here i am today, i want to proclaim that, starting now onwards, Faten Najjah bt Tuan Hussain had promised to herself that she will try to change into a better muslim, to be an obey servant of Allah, and to be a good ummah of Rasulullah saw.
Yes, i decided to 'Hijrah'. I've been living in this jahiliyah zone for too long and i shall make a move now. We never know when Allah will take our soul. I'm getting older so do the death, it's coming closer, to you and to me.

But why you have to hijrah? you already wear tudung. You recite al-quran. You perfrom your solah.

No, in fact, i feel that i am way too tiny compared to others. I mean, i've been committing sins a lot either the big nor the small one. I wear hijab but my appearance? I used to wear jeans (quite tight). I recite al-quran very seldom. People might think that me is such an alim person but no i never felt so. There are more people that way too better than myself. Allahuakbar! I am totally getting ashamed of myself.

But, i believe that, Allah is most forgiving. I once hesitated whether He wants to accept my apology or not but now, I believe that, if I do my best in order to seek for His forgiveness, He surely forgive me.

I made a reflection of what i did in my past. 

And I am in a total regret. 

I scared that on the Judgement day, Allah azza wajalla will ask me what have i done when Allah give me the chance to stay alive. Did I worshipping Him?? Did i spread the deen? What have i contributed in order to help Islam? Allahuakbar! May Allah forgive us. 

Therefore here it is, i wanna share a little bit tips in doing preparation for the Judgement day. May these little thought of mine benefit everyone. Bi iznillah. 

1. To change drastically is barely possible. We have to make it slow, step by step. And maybe, you can start your way with covering your aurah as best as you can. Try to wear a bigger size of hijab (bidang 50 is adequate ^^), wear a proper clothes (if you love to wear shirt or blouse, wear a baggy one). in my case, i'd rather wear abaya since i own lots of them or a baggy and 'labuh' blouses (until the knees level) and wear them with a skirt. hehe, And yeah, i never recommend you to wear jeans, it really looks unsuitable for the women (no offence). Try something a little bit girly lah haiyo. Wear skirt or slack-baggy trousers. Wear handsock, 'pelapik dagu' and not forgetting socks! :D

1. Try to join usrah or any religious activity held. Yes, i've joined some of usrah group through whatsapp and wechat, and Alhamdulillah, it really helps A LOT. You gonna gain a lot of knowledge thru those. In sha allah. 

1. Istiqomah (costant) in your change. Never ever miss your solah. NEVER! Istiqomah on that. Because solah is the main and most crucial things in this religion. It's going to be the first things that will be asked during the judgement day. And how on earth you gonna pass the other questions when you cannot answer the first thing that will be asked by Allah is not answerable?! Think!

1. Try to avoid lagha (default. Things that is 'melalaikan' i mean that is not beneficial. Haih it is hard to explain in english -.-) For example, watching tv, facebooking, twittering, bloggering (ehem) and etc in such protracted. And maybe it'll cause you to delay your solah, wasting your time to those things instead of reciting al-quran and many more. Therefore, try to make yourself busy with beneficial things such as, reading sirah anbiya, watch religious programmes or talks and many more. 

1. If people mock at you, just be quiet. Complain everything to Allah, let everything go when you are in your prayer. Cry in front of Allah as many as you want. Never ever insult the others back. Instead, pray to Allah to open their heart. This cases really happen a lot to me, trust me, by complaining to Allah instead of your friends or parents or whoever it is, it will made you feel a lot better. (I've experienced this and it really works hehe.)

Fuh~ I just realized that it's already 3 a.m. ! And guess what? I have to go to school tomorrow for things that i don't even know what it is since cikgu nik didnt tell us what she wanna do tomorrow. oh no mayn *crying out loud* 

So, until then people. Keep istiqomah and don't forget to do your preparation for your death. 

Never fear the death. Fear the state in which will you die.