I got offer to SESTER
Assalamualaikum wbt.
So yeap, i didn't get the offer of course. I am not sure whether i should be sad or happy (yaaaaa i didnt cry oh yaaaa didnt cry sangat kan -.-) Imagine, that moment when i saw the result and i was in a big shock that i feel like someone just zipped my mouth. Speechless! I seriously don't know what to do that my eyes started to become all watery and my tears started to drop, flowing on my pudgy cheek (eheh!). There was nobody at home. My mind keep thinking about Najwa, how i miss her so much that i hope she was there next to me. But, it didnt happen so. And what even worse, i couldn't make any phone call to my friend because my phone was out of battery and my sister took the charger!
I kept on crying, walking back and forth. Trying my best to keep myself in calm. Alhamdulillah, Allah give me the peace, He calm me down. I kept on remembering the verse "after hardship is ease." and "La tahzan inallahamaana" (Don't be sad, Allah is with you). My mouth non-stop whispering "Allah knows the best Najjah. There's always be a reason behind all these."
Later, i took wudhu' and performed my salah. Again, He grant me the calmness of worshiping Him, He listened to my complain i guess. It is just amazing how He put my sorrow heart back to normal, i felt nothing about my sbp result. I dare myself to call mama (using my telefon rumah -.-) and tell her about this. Alhamdulillah, the conversation went well. Mama didn't scold me or what instead she only asked me to appeal for second intake.
After all, not getting into SBP is not like my world is going to end soon. I shall say that it is just a little bit disappointment for me. Though, still Allah know the best and he shall give what we need instead of what we want. Maybe Allah wants me to complete my upper form in YL. Wallahualam. What i have to say is, always husnudzon towards our Maker. Let's take this failure as a test from Him to tarbiyah ourselves. And never loose hope to Allah. Keep on praying cause there is a verse in the al quran that Allah has said, whosoever make dua, He will grant it. It doesn't matter when Allah will grant it, let Allah take care of it. We, as a slave of Allah, just keep on dua. Istiqomah in doing worship. Because Allah love those who had been given a test, but they still be patient and didn't loose faith toward Allah.
May Allah bless us kindness and patient.
Maasalamah.
p/s: Please pray for me to get the sbp's second intake. I really need your dua muslims. May Allah bless us. Allahumma amin.
Yeyyyy!
Guess what?
I got offer to enter SESTER.........
In my dream.
So yeap, i didn't get the offer of course. I am not sure whether i should be sad or happy (yaaaaa i didnt cry oh yaaaa didnt cry sangat kan -.-) Imagine, that moment when i saw the result and i was in a big shock that i feel like someone just zipped my mouth. Speechless! I seriously don't know what to do that my eyes started to become all watery and my tears started to drop, flowing on my pudgy cheek (eheh!). There was nobody at home. My mind keep thinking about Najwa, how i miss her so much that i hope she was there next to me. But, it didnt happen so. And what even worse, i couldn't make any phone call to my friend because my phone was out of battery and my sister took the charger!
I kept on crying, walking back and forth. Trying my best to keep myself in calm. Alhamdulillah, Allah give me the peace, He calm me down. I kept on remembering the verse "after hardship is ease." and "La tahzan inallahamaana" (Don't be sad, Allah is with you). My mouth non-stop whispering "Allah knows the best Najjah. There's always be a reason behind all these."
Later, i took wudhu' and performed my salah. Again, He grant me the calmness of worshiping Him, He listened to my complain i guess. It is just amazing how He put my sorrow heart back to normal, i felt nothing about my sbp result. I dare myself to call mama (using my telefon rumah -.-) and tell her about this. Alhamdulillah, the conversation went well. Mama didn't scold me or what instead she only asked me to appeal for second intake.
After all, not getting into SBP is not like my world is going to end soon. I shall say that it is just a little bit disappointment for me. Though, still Allah know the best and he shall give what we need instead of what we want. Maybe Allah wants me to complete my upper form in YL. Wallahualam. What i have to say is, always husnudzon towards our Maker. Let's take this failure as a test from Him to tarbiyah ourselves. And never loose hope to Allah. Keep on praying cause there is a verse in the al quran that Allah has said, whosoever make dua, He will grant it. It doesn't matter when Allah will grant it, let Allah take care of it. We, as a slave of Allah, just keep on dua. Istiqomah in doing worship. Because Allah love those who had been given a test, but they still be patient and didn't loose faith toward Allah.
May Allah bless us kindness and patient.
Maasalamah.
p/s: Please pray for me to get the sbp's second intake. I really need your dua muslims. May Allah bless us. Allahumma amin.
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