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Assalamualaikum wbt.

Alhamdulillah i can't be more than grateful for the biggest bless Allah've granted to me. I'm finally wear a niqab, Allahuakbar.

I don't know, how and why i wear this. The odd feeling just came by to me and the desire to wear the niqab is just unexplainable! At first, i just wanted to try it on during the street dakwah i've joined two days ago, but then, Subhanallah, i felt very comfortable and secure wearing it.
Wallahi, i don't have any intention to brag. It's just.........I would like to make it official since i don't really have the gut to share this beautiful new to others nor to approach them with niqab. Haih. I still need to gather all the confident before facing all the people.

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Niqab, why do i have to wear it? Well, as i've said, i'm still in search. I don't know what i seek for by wearing this but, I pray to Allah that everything i do is for the sake of grabbing He's Mardhatillah, Insyaallah. I know, it's a really big decision to actually started to wear the niqab as Malaysian isn't really familiar with it. -even all my close people around me feel the same. It's just crazy how i can ended up wearing the niqab at such an early age, i mean like, hey, you're still a student, even if you're interested in wearing it, then wear it after you ended your school. Really, i never asked for this feeling to come inside me. My friend know how much i disagree with the wearing of niqab meanwhile you're still so called highschool student. But then. miraculously, Allah give me the strength and hidayah to wear it now. Alhamdulillah, hadza min fadli rabbi.

So, at first i'm expecting antagonism (penentangan) from my parents, family members, friends and some other close people. I was so scared back then when i was back from street dakwah with niqab covering my face. I almost take it off cause i'm afraid my parents would think wrongly about me when they see me in that. But then, I let Allah take care of that. Alhamdulillah, Allah give me the strength to keep wearing that and let my parents saw it. I non-stop zikr and selawat that Allah ease me and open my parents' heart. Subhanallah, indeed Allahu sami'. He listen and grant my dua.

I entered my car and said "okay jangan terkejut"
"Ya Allah terkejut ingat siapa tadi." my mum replied while laughing.
"Acah acah je pakai niqab." said my adik.

And me, sengih je mampu and was like trying my hard to change the topic. Hahah. So, i decided to tell my mom what i did at the street dakwah just now while my heart beat so fast- Only Allah know how awkward i felt that moment.

Then suddenly, my mom asked
"macam mana rasa pakai niqab tu?"
"okay je, best! Rasa secure"
"Lawa tengok pakai camni. Mama kalau tak kerja nak pakai macam ni lah."

And i was like, AllahuAkbar, Alhamdulillah! I'm so happy to hear that from my mom's mouth and I pray to Allah that He'll ease her way.I can't be more than happy to hear this, really.

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After all, there're lots more things i need to explore and learn. Life will be harder day by day with obstacle and tests awaiting. But as long as you depends on Allah, everything will be more than fine.
May Allah grants everyone hidayah and ease everyone. And may this year become lot more better than the past years. Ameen!

P/s;Do pray for me to keep istiqomah in wearing niqab. :)
Much love, FN.